You were never meant to Belong.
The pressure you feel on your shoulders, holding you in place.
The hand that grips your throat, silencing your voice, filtering your message.
The force that stands before you whispering fears and doubts into your mind
That surge of anxiety inside that seduces you with lies of unworthiness and false beliefs.
That’s within you.
Forever trying to carve yourSelf down enough to fit into a role that was never even created for you. Holding yourSelf back based on the perceived expectation of others.
It’s in the thought patterns we bind ourselves to.. the ones based on ways of the past, the ways of the world, the ways of the masses that keep us trapped in a mold we simply don’t fit in.
And here’s the thing, who you are isn’t who you always have to be. Who you’ve been isn’t who you are becoming.
It’s okay if today you are completely brand new, and tomorrow if you do it again.
That’s okay too.
As you unravel yourSelf from all the chains of expectation, the fabrics of attachment, the energy of the status quo…
When you excavate all the “shoulds” that occupy the caverns in your mind, and you uproot the beliefs that have taken up acreage in your power center and unplug from the fear that surges within the chambers of your heart
You are left with a sense of spaciousness (some feel empty), a sense of bareness rawness, like freshly tilled soil that hasn’t been utilized for seed yet. (And yet still so valuable)
And in that spaciousness when the discomfort of the unknown sets in, when you notice the void that other people and things once filled and it seems like It will never be full again.
I ask you to wait… To simply be…
Instead of falling back and filling the empty space with the old and comfortable, can you trust? Can you be?
It takes time to find stability as you walk in your essence; it takes experience and failure and learning about all the things we want and all the things we don’t.
Every experience and metamorphosis is simply refining, a shedding, as you get closer and closer to the core of who you are.
It’s not strange that you feel lost; nothing is wrong with you because you don’t know the way, and I promise (finished in the comments)
you are never alone in your fear.
You are walking an unknown planet in a strange skin; you are playing with energies and creating new worlds. Of course, it will feel scary and like you don’t fit it.
You were never meant to.
